Life is never fair

Fizah Norazmi

This is only half of my life in words

Fizah
My thoughts is none of your business

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Thursday, February 24, 2011

im picking up the pieces slowly. but its too slow and im getting desperate. i really hope i can delete everything, but even if i can, i wont be able to do it. sometimes, i do hope that none of this would happen, from the camp onwards till whatever happens now. but i know that there's nothing much i can do. i really thought what we had was strong and we were invincible. i thought nothing could ever bring us down. we conquered a 10 day myanmar trip but it takes just afew pieces of paper to crumble us down? and to think that these few pieces of paper could never bring anyone's happiness no matter how much there is. i couldnt imagine life without you and now i'm living it. and if this is how it really is, i'd rather not live it which leads to you being my everything. you asked about the dream, how could i tell you its about you? and you think, its easy for me to just say "go find someone better" ? its hard as hell and i was crying so bad when i said that. but i want you to know that its ok to move on though it hurts me and plus, the truth is i dont want you to move on. but that will be selfish of me. you should move on anytime and i have no right to stop you cause im nothing anymore to you. afew months back, I was YOUR everything. but now, im nothing to you. absolutely nothing. life is just so very hard without you around. even 65 seems longer without you. even if it takes years for me to get you outta my head, then i will do it.

i'm smiling

In my heart

Fizah Norazmi This is only half of my life in words
Fizah My thoughts is none of your business Archives August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 February 2011 March 2011 August 2011	Thursday, February 24, 2011 im picking up the pieces slowly. but its too slow and im getting desperate. i really hope i can delete everything, but even if i can, i wont be able to do it. sometimes, i do hope that none of this would happen, from the camp onwards till whatever happens now. but i know that there's nothing much i can do. i really thought what we had was strong and we were invincible. i thought nothing could ever bring us down. we conquered a 10 day myanmar trip but it takes just afew pieces of paper to crumble us down? and to think that these few pieces of paper could never bring anyone's happiness no matter how much there is. i couldnt imagine life without you and now i'm living it. and if this is how it really is, i'd rather not live it which leads to you being my everything. you asked about the dream, how could i tell you its about you? and you think, its easy for me to just say "go find someone better" ? its hard as hell and i was crying so bad when i said that. but i want you to know that its ok to move on though it hurts me and plus, the truth is i dont want you to move on. but that will be selfish of me. you should move on anytime and i have no right to stop you cause im nothing anymore to you. afew months back, I was YOUR everything. but now, im nothing to you. absolutely nothing. life is just so very hard without you around. even 65 seems longer without you. even if it takes years for me to get you outta my head, then i will do it.
i'm smiling In my heart