Fizah

2011-08-18T20:21:00.003+08:00

TYRNA GET UPDATES ABOUT ME, DICKHEAD ?!

GO FUCK YOURSELF ! HAHA !

2011-03-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

EXAMS FINISH, I ENJOY. SUMPAH

provided that your answer is a yes.

2011-03-03T19:26:00.001+08:00

this song's for you, just change december to february.

2011-03-02T22:25:00.001+08:00

Sweetest girlfriend <3

2011-03-02T22:18:00.004+08:00

still
WAITING

2011-02-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

ive been watching hannah montana forever ever since i reached home. im just so miserable and i need something to distract me.

i'd really hope you'd say yes. please, i would trade anything and give you anything and do anything just to get you back in my life. bring me wherever you go and whatever you do. you can do whatever you want and i will be there cheering you on, just dont leave me behind. cause your commitment is all i ever need. now i realized that you were and would always be the best i ever had. some people need to lose someone to know how much that someone means to them. and i was them. this is only our first time that everything really ended. so why not give a second chance cause i believe it will be wayy better then before, i just need your cooperation and your commitment. please? give it another chance? baby, just say yes.

2011-02-28T16:58:00.001+08:00

i cried the whole time i was doing my test kay. tak klakar ehhhh. sumpah.

2011-02-27T19:45:00.002+08:00

i miss everything about you. the smoothness of your arm that i never fail to caress whenever we're in the bus. laying my head on your upper arm cause its just so comfy. kissing your soft cheeks cause it just felt right. and that thin layer of skin just beneath your eyes that always caught my attention for no apparent reason when i stare at your eyes. and your cute-baby-like-playful facial expression just before you start doing something playful. what about your dimples that i always over-looked. and the sound of your laughter when something just tickles you. and that mangkuk hair of yours. and yeah, though i never said it before, you look ubber-cute actually. and i love your curls right at the end of your hair; they're like baby curls from baby's hair. the way you say "Awww!" when i said something sweet to you. your smell by itself could give me pleasure in my heart , like nothing in this world matters except for you. the way you kissed my forehead making me feel so so special. i miss all these little things. and i would trade anything just to get all these back. i love you and i miss you, eternally.

2011-02-27T18:51:00.001+08:00

you killed me.

2011-02-27T08:53:00.002+08:00

work today 1130 till 1730.

someone a part of my lfe, someone i could not live without whether i like it or not.
tired and not moving on. tired that im always giving others a thought when im the one that needed to carry all the burden. not that im being not sincere, its just unfair.

2011-02-25T21:13:00.002+08:00

quick update, then im heading to bed. im awfully sick. i feel like shitty shit-shit. i vomitted in the morning and it was all foam-y. when i thought i was feeling better, then throat was giving me problems. i had laksa for dinner, but i ate half and everything came right back out. yeap, i vomitted in public. thank god syirah was there to help. she bought me plain water. so i went back home early cause of headache plus nausea plus giddy-ness.

dear body, please please please get well soon. im gonna give you some rest so i'll be all better by tomorrow morning. i wanna enjoy my day at Ubin. please body, iloveyou.

2011-02-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

im picking up the pieces slowly. but its too slow and im getting desperate. i really hope i can delete everything, but even if i can, i wont be able to do it. sometimes, i do hope that none of this would happen, from the camp onwards till whatever happens now. but i know that there's nothing much i can do. i really thought what we had was strong and we were invincible. i thought nothing could ever bring us down. we conquered a 10 day myanmar trip but it takes just afew pieces of paper to crumble us down? and to think that these few pieces of paper could never bring anyone's happiness no matter how much there is. i couldnt imagine life without you and now i'm living it. and if this is how it really is, i'd rather not live it which leads to you being my everything. you asked about the dream, how could i tell you its about you? and you think, its easy for me to just say "go find someone better" ? its hard as hell and i was crying so bad when i said that. but i want you to know that its ok to move on though it hurts me and plus, the truth is i dont want you to move on. but that will be selfish of me. you should move on anytime and i have no right to stop you cause im nothing anymore to you. afew months back, I was YOUR everything. but now, im nothing to you. absolutely nothing. life is just so very hard without you around. even 65 seems longer without you. even if it takes years for me to get you outta my head, then i will do it.

happyhappyhappy !!

2011-02-24T19:03:00.002+08:00

Today was better then yesterday . i definitely had a blast at the Army Open House . the lorry ride, ahh yes . that was the best ! andand, after that we had revision in the lab, and i actually paid attention and i actually understand what the teacher is talking about . miracle ! thank god, she went through the topics on proteins and carbohydrates cause those were the ones i was weak at. okay, im gonna go study for my test on Monday ! byeeeee. (:

2011-02-23T16:52:00.003+08:00

"Everytime i look at the moon, it reminds me of you. To me, the moon is you. Always lighting up the dark side of my life."

sounds familiar ? i'll give you a hint. its not from me. sometimes i feel depreciated and belittled. cause people doesnt seem to appreciate my presence. its either they took advantage of me and my feelings or they just pretend like i dont exist at all. i tried to make people happy, even if it means losing my own happiness. i was there when someone needed a friend but when i needed a shoulder to cry on or just simply a hug, i dont receive any especially from the people i expect the most. sorry, if im just someone you could live without, but i didnt asked to be born in this world. if i had a choice, i'd rather not exist.

2011-02-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

after i found out what you did, i thought half of my suffering was gone. but today suddenly everything came back and it hit me hard and i found myself unable to stop the tears. it was out of my control. i didnt have the house key so i wandered of somewhere alone since school ended early today. but a good friend called me up and i cried right then and there. i force myself to stop the tears but it was almost impossible. i felt stupid and i know i look stupid so i ran to the toilet and cried as hard as i could. i felt better and meet her at tamp . she was with her bf and i felt bad for ruining their time but i desperately need someone to be with or else i'll breakdown again. after that i felt better but i know this is gonna happen again, my sudden outburst.

2011-02-20T23:33:00.003+08:00

this song is so meaningful. and beyonce's vocal is, WOW. yeah and old song, i know. but when i hear it again it really touched my heart. and guess where i heard it ? at work, having my toilet break doing my business in the cubicle. really, i swear. donno why isetan now play songs by beyonce, rihanna and lady gaga and most of them are sad love songs. weird right ?! i think Isetan got dumped by Tangs ah. ahahha, k lame.

lyrics yaw ! (:

You're everything i thought you never were
And nothing like i thought you could of been
But still, you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You're the only one i wish i could forget
The only one i love to not forgive
And though you break my heart
Your the only one

[Bridge]
And though there are times then i hate you
Cause i cant erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even noe while i hate you,
It pains me to say
i know i'll be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]
I dont wanna be without you baby
I dont wanna broken heart
Dont wanna take a breath without you babe
i dont wanna play that part
i know that i love you
But let me just say
i dont wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I dont wanna broken heart
And i dont wanna play the broken hearted girl
No-o, No-oo
No broken hearted girl
im no broken hearted girl

There's something that i feel i need to say
But up to now i've always been afraid
That you, would never come around
And still i wanna put this out

You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes i feel your not deserving me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

[Bridge 2]
and yes, there are times when i hate you
But i dont complain
Cause i've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now i dont hate you,
im happy to say
that i will be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]

Now im at a place i thought i'd never be
Im living in a world that all about you and me
Yeahh
Ain't gonna be afraid my broken heart is free
Just spread my wings and fly away
Away with you~
yeah, yeah, yeah

[Chorus 2]
I dont wanna be without my baby
I dont wanna broken heart
Dont wanna take a breath without my baby
i dont wanna play that part
i know that i love you
But let me just say
i dont wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I dont wanna broken heart
i dont wanna play the broken hearted girl
No-o, No-oo
No broken hearted girl
Broken hearted girl
No-o Nooo
No broken hearted girl
No broken hearted girl

2011-02-20T10:32:00.008+08:00

Hopefully its full again tonight. i love moons. it posed alot of meanings in my personal life. especially when it seems so big and so close and fire-y, gorgeous.
im glad everything is settled. it makes it easier to move on and not let it left hanging like that. though i didnt get the icing on the cake, its okay. (: i cant wait for the 26th! cause its Cycling with friends at Ubin! but i think they gonna close Chek Jawa cause there's too much damage done already. ok off to work soon ! byeeeee (:

it suddenly seems like the first few days of getting to know each other again

2011-02-19T05:07:00.002+08:00

i cant do it, im not strong enough. i told you before that i cant live without you. you think, im exagerating when i say that? i wasnt, okay. i really meant it. now i dont see any motive in life. i dont see why i should carry on when im gonna cry till my eyes popped out till the day i die. i can never replace you with anybody else. right now, it just doesnt seem right that i'm text messaging someone else other then you. i want you back soo badly. you have no idea how much i miss you. but i can't and i won't. i wanna stay as friends, good friends would be better, bestfriends would be the best. i dont care if just looking at your face would feel like my heart was stabbed a million times, as long as i know i get to talk and laugh with you and know that you're doing well. tell me about the new girl you will meet, i wanna know all about it, i'll even give you my best opinion, just dont completely abandoned me. i'd rather take the pain being close with you, rather then then the pain being completely abandoned by you. just stay, please.

2011-02-18T15:03:00.007+08:00

i still sleep with the bear i still sleep with the bolster i still use our ring i still use the watch you gave me i still sleep using your red tshirt i still have the rose i still havent eaten the Toblerone you gave i still have the wrapper of the previous chocolate you gave i still have your picture in my wallet i still keep our movie tickets i still keep the paper hearts i still keep your messages i still have your hiccup video and most importantly, i still have you in a special place in my heart ♥♥♥

2011-02-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

The reason why i love my friends (:

Remember?

2011-02-17T19:21:00.004+08:00

Random

Roses are red
Violets are blue
You might be a donkey
But i still love you

i'l climb some stairs
To see your flat hair
But all that was there
Was a cute little hare

So i drag myself down
With a huge ass frown
Thinking of you
Is all i can do

So i sat by the swing
Wonder if i should ring
And then you came
With a huge diamond ring

My knees went weak
As i tried to speak
It was harder then a test
But the answer is Yes

I jumped up high
Hoping for a hug
But all i get
Was a painful thud

I'd fallen from my bed !
It was just a dream
I felt so silly
So silly of me

Happy Birthday

Annoying as you'll ever be
You'll always be a part of me

I don't know what i'll do
If it hadn't been for you

Rain or Shine
You'll always be mine

I don't know what is it about your touch
That made me love you so much

2011-02-16T17:39:00.003+08:00

im suffering from a disease. They call it,

POST BREAK UP SYNDROME.

its been long since i last blogged. maybe because i use to have someone to talk to and to share things with. but now, i dont anymore. and this is the only way i can let it all out. its quite a big price to pay, but as long as people around me stays happy, it doesnt matter.

but no doubt, im at the tip of my toes and at the very top of the hill; anytime i could lose my balance and fall flat at my face. but like i said, as long as people around me stays happy, it doenst matter.

im not sure if i'll survive. i could barely eat or drink. i see food, its not even tempting. me? nurfaizah is not eating? something must be very wrong. all this while, i thought people just "pretended" they cant eat when they're sad, cause i just couldnt understand; dont they feel hungry? but now, i face it too, its not that sad people "pretended" not to be hungry. i am really not hungry, sometimes the thought to eat just doesnt seem to cross my mind. but still, like i said, as long as people around me stays happy, it doenst matter.

but nonetheless, i have great friends to distract myself so that i wont think too much. i might laugh very loud, smile as wide as ever, skip around looking ever so happy like as if im flying with the stars, but inside, im a mess. a huge mess. the knot in my stomach never seems to untie; it just gets tighter and tighter, and my heart is constantly aching and the need to burst is so very overwhelming but no, i'll just pretend everything is under control cause like i said, as long as people around me stays happy, it doenst matter.

things might be over,

but i'll never be able to forget about you.

You've Changed

2010-11-18T20:39:00.003+08:00

2010-11-14T11:13:00.001+08:00

my new workplace at my old workplace . go figure .

and ohh, its no longer the coffee connoissuer, its

The Connoisseur Concerto

2010-11-07T00:01:00.012+08:00

i like this photo but baby look poostid .

Happy 1st Anniversary Baby !

i can't pretend that things didnt change; and i wont deny that im not ok with it . but at the same time i cant expect every relationship to be smooth-sailing . and with you, its the perfect balance . though we went through one of our toughest months just days before our Anniversary , i'm glad we held on strong and pulled through .

i love you more than anyone i had ever loved and i hope you do too . i never ever want to leave you cause you're the best miracle that had ever happened to me . my angle from above, my heart and soul . till death do us apart . i love you Muhammad Hanafi bin Rosli .

2010-11-03T20:10:00.003+08:00

"its only beautiful in the beginning but gets ugly in the ending . "

i didnt believe it when i met you but now i guess its very true .

2010-10-31T21:27:00.003+08:00

think about it, we wouldnt react like this if its for nothing . but if you think that the way you handle time is correct, by all means girl . like you said, we're approaching 20 next year so we need to know a little bit of time management .

Enough said .

2010-10-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

im guessing that that wasnt for me, cause i certainly do not remember calling you "stupid" . even if i did, it was just out of fun and nothing serious . too bad if you get all sensitive . *shrugg*

BUT, if it does ..
in the first place, i DO appreciate it and i DO remember those good deeds . but that doesnt mean that you should ignore us, your friends (the people that you know before you were in a relationship, just incase you forgot) . OKAY, i'll cut you some slack . you didnt totally ignore us . but its always, im going to go see __ . im meeting ___. im waiting for ___.
its A-N-N-O-Y-I-N-G . and fyi, just to let you know, chill it ! yeah its your very first serious relationship but you've got to RELAAXXXX . and puhlease, most of us find it hard to believe you sometimes when you said "i have to go home cause my mum called" like seriously, we're not THAT dumb . *ROLL EYES*

i have this feeling that you havent heard this phrase , the reason to you being all clingy with your bf . "FRIENDS COME FIRST , THEN BOYFRIENDS" . WAKE UP GIRL !
and did i really said anything that you thought it was my MOUTH that caused all this ? is it my posts in facebook ? did you thought it was you ? cause i certainly didnt put your name on it .

and you wanna talk about attitude ? go buy a full length mirror and look veerryy closely . cause i see beyond those big not so innocent eyes .

good to know, that i'm so busy with the things that is going on in my life till you cant even asked me if i wanted to join the study group . if i wanted or not, thats my problem . it must have been really hurt to ask now isnt it ?

riiigggghhttt, and you said staying quiet isnt the right way to solving problems . good to know you don't talk straight all the time (: WHOOPS !

seriously, i didnt mean to sound sarcastic . cause i really am not .

look, i really dont want to fight . BUT, its just these few things about you that spoil it . if its not because of this you would have been the most wonderful friend ever . i swear in the name of god i am not lying when i say this . if you rmb, i did try talking to you about it but you said the reason why you did it is because im always with Hanafi and i didnt seem like i needed you anymore . that is certainly not true . like you said, you're my friend . and friends need friends . but if what you said is true, why are you still as clingy as ever with your bf when hanafi havent been in school this few weeks . i barely get to see him in a week . i wont deny that some of my words may hurt you, jokingly or not . but you have got to know, i NEVER MEANT THAT . and i am SORRY .

2010-10-30T22:52:00.007+08:00

sometimes being friends with animals would be a better choice .

when you start having a relationship with the opposite sex;
DO NOT IGNORE YOUR FRIENDS .
standard rule of being a good friend .
and,
if you plan to offer help to a needy friend,
DO NOT BRING IT UP WHEN THINGS TURNED THE OTHER WAY AROUND
it shows how not sincere you really are .

2010-10-26T15:09:00.002+08:00

i want to ignore everything

but i can't

im stuck with this for the rest of my life

my head cant take it

my brain is begging for mercy

i asked help from school but they wont help me

i need a job but they delay me

im unintentionally skipping class

but the truth is, i really do wanna go

but i can't afford it

i'm supporting myself on my own

2010-10-25T22:01:00.006+08:00

Things were great till i started having doubts . Now

i try not to think of it; but how to when everything

seems crystal. I can't make the bad memory go away .

What if it strikes again?

2010-09-01T09:38:00.002+08:00

what i really want to do now is to run away and hide from the world . be in my small tini tiny space where i can just cry and cry non-stop . without having anyone noticing or sympathizing their fake sympathy towards me . i just feel so alone , unaccepted and unappreciated . like my existence means nothing to every single human being in this planet .

people around me seems to grow more distant . they're so near yet so far . is it me ? it is, isnt it ?just admit it . i'll accept it with a willing heart .

i envy those who have such happy lives; going home to a welcoming family , without having your little sister show her fcuked up attitude right infront of your face before you even had the chance to take off your slippers , without having your mum pick a fight with you just because you get angry at your little sister for showin her fcuked up attitude . did i mention even before you even had the chance to take off your slippers ? yes slippers, it only takes a second to take them off .

friends, where are they, really , when i needed them ? can't blame them , cause i dont talk about it anymore .

my limit is drawing near . my head is preparing to explode . they have started loading the explosives inside . its just about time for the fire to burn out .
i am giving up .

2010-08-29T12:29:00.003+08:00

i'm leaving this area in just over a week . 4 months pass by so fast eyyy .

i had a bad experience with this boutique which i shall not state the name here . i bought this jacket that cost heaps just a few days back . but after buying it, i thought to myself, " i can never take care of this" refering to the previous times i spoil every single expensive thing that i own . so i check the receipt if i could exchange or refund . yeah, i know its unlikely for refunds but i was just trying my luck . and theeeeeeen, i saw this .

"EXCHANGE AND REFUND WITHIN 10 DAYS OF PURCHASE"

so i went to the shop asking for a refund . i approach one of the sales person . BUT she told me, "ohh, we dont do refunds" . so i explain and showed her the receipt clearly stating the word "REFUND" . she took the jacket along with my receipt to another salesperson whom i assume an old timer or supervisor and she attended to me . and again i was told that there would be no refund , only exchanges or a voucher with the exact same price . so i told them in a very nice manner trying to not be like one of those fussy customers, saying, "okaaayy, maybe you would like to remove the word refund on the receipt . " and i was saying it with a smile . and NOT a sarcastic smile at all .

so i walked around looking for items i could exchange it with . i was looking at atleast more then two items so i could match the price of the jacket . while walking around, the same sales person approach me saying, " i could help you exchange or refund . i just called my manager and he said ok . JUST DONT DO IT AGAIN NEXT TIME . "

by then, the inside of me was literally on fire .

at first, the receipt clearly stated refunds is possible but when i got there they said no refunds . if you dont do refunds, down effing state "exchange and REFUNDS within ten days of purchase" .

another thing, the second sales person, it was obvious in her face that she was annoyed by me . like hello, i am afterall the customer (and no, im not trying to imply the customer is always right bull) and your workplace is the start of all this miscommunication, not ME . i let that pass too .

and now, whats the thing about dont do it again next time ?! its not MY FAULT YOUR WORKPLACE STATE THINGS IN THE RECEIPT THAT ISNT TRUE ! its not like as if i still demanded a refund after you told me you dont do refunds . and, i did say that i would think about it first if i wanted an exchange or a voucher !

i was mad, but i didnt say anything of the above . i still put up a smile and told her i would prefer a refund . and all the while she served me, she was giving me the attitude . i let it go, collected my money and walked off .

gtg, batt's dying . bye

2010-08-13T21:19:00.011+08:00

This blog is soooooo dusty . its either i'm busy or i just couldnt be bothered to update . National Day was a blast . went out with baby to Plaza Sing . caught Despicable Me, had lunch then Fireworks with his family at the Esplanade . and ohh, not to mention Wicked Aura too (:

i am deathly afraid of Monday . Grandmothers' been diagnose with cancer and will be undergoing surgery . and so i took the initiative to take off for that day . This is the month of Ramadhan and i hope all our prayers for her will be answered . Amin .

on the otherhand, Grandfather; is being very stubborn . he is reaching his 90's soon and its obvious he's not very strong . his blood pressure hasnt been consistent and he still wants to push himself . he nearly fell twice due to dizzyness - which he refuse to admit - at the hospital .

baby, is sick too . high fever . stubborn also, so sick still want to fast .
so imagine the amount of worrying i'm going through .

still, TGIF .

photos of National Day, we wore Yellow instead of Red . (:

2010-08-02T13:18:00.007+08:00

Jurong Bird Park with Baby, Suhailah, Mas, Fatin and Qamal .
It was fun ! lets do it again . (:

2010-07-15T12:57:00.002+08:00

i feel bad for abandoning my laptop since i've been so busy with work lately . so since i'm on MC (really really bad headaches) today , i've decided to spend some time with it to make it happy . but you know, the batteries isnt cooperating . i hate it when i wanna do some surfing but there's wires sticking out everywhere . so im gonna make this a quick update .

as usual, im still on attachment doing the same thing everyday, then fasting month is coming soon and i heard by then work will be more tougher, instead of coming at 8am in the morning, i can come by 3plus or 4 pm in the afternoon and work my way all the way till night time . which means, cab fare, ugh ! i just cant wait for attachment to end . but i'll definitely miss everyone there .

baby's birthday is coming, so is sakinah jaffar's . two of the most special people in my life , it doesnt help that their birthday is in the same month . and i'm still undecided what to get them .

well, all i know is, i cant wait for mine ! no, not that im reaching 19 which makes me feel old, just that, baby and me will be going to Blaze 2 Leadership Camp together during this happy period of the year . just like last year's Blaze 1 camp where we meet for the first time . and it also during my birthday then ! so thats why i cant wait, duhhhh . i expect him to bring my whole party to Bintan . HAHAHAH .

and so i have watched eclispse, twice . i could watch it again . but nahhhh, twice is enough .

ok, so much for quick update eyy . got to run, byeeeeee !

2010-06-30T19:52:00.002+08:00

yeeahhh, Soul Percussion will be performing at this event along Orchard Road this Saturday

around 2pm onwards . So show your support by coming down yaw ~ !

I'll be performing with them and i am sexcited ! first time ever performing outside and representing ITE College East . So wish me tons of luck, ok . (:

During lunch just now, me and my other colleagues , we had a very interesting discussion . its about racism . and its happening all over the world . very saddening , isnt it ?
and i was told that its happening here right in my very own country . i knew there are some racist amoung us, the people of Singapore, and its a crime to be one . but i didnt know we had a quota among races to enter a certain school . this is what i heard and i'm not sure if its true; but if it is, then is very sickening and disgusting . and ofcourse, we've been told that there is no such quota, but how true is this ?

yes, we are multi-racial . but why do i still see racial barriers ? and obviously, we don't have a say . cause they'll never admit it . and the most important is, what is their motive? its sickening, disgusting and extremely unacceptable .

ok, gtg . byee .

2010-06-27T11:33:00.002+08:00

i look like some old woman with my specs like that.

so yesterday i went to this National Percussion Competition, Drumzout, with my school percussion team . They didnt get the cup but i thought they did well but Baracuda Batucada was no doubt pretty good . They brought back cups for both their school and open team under the fusion category . and they also won the most popular team thing . pfft ! everything they want to kawop ! hahaha, but they were very good , really . i'll upload the vid soon .

i watched Toy Story 3D on the same day with Baby's sisters . it was good, but not great . the first part was kinda slow, but the rescue part was great . i laughed non-stop ! hahah . i give it one and a half thumbs up . ((:

i am bored, i wish i can go out . but baby's tired from yesterday's competion . maybe i go watch a movie alone ? You know, just the times you feel like having your ME time .

ok, gtg, byeeeee .

work, work, work

2010-06-19T17:55:00.005+08:00

Please don't mind my hideous look, what was i to do ? i had to gown up ! and ohh, DONT follow my example, i actually need to use my safety goggles . hahah .

yeeeaaappp ! blog skin changed, tagboard back in place and atlast, i manage to find time to update my very very very dusty blog . im just waayyyy to busy with attachment and i had to quit my other job; i just couldnt cope with having 2 jobs yknow . what more with me having to come back during the weekends (if you had read my profile) . the picture above is actually from the work i did just now .

luck hasnt been on my side, i have been experiencing more down then ups . i wish not to elaborate on that . but everything seems to stabilize already except for somethings though .

so my daily routine is pretty much a bore, so i wont update about that . what im gonna talk about is my wisdom tooth .

IT IS DRIVING ME INSANE !
IT HURTS LIKE NOBODYS BUSINESS !
AND JUST EATING IS A HASSLE !
ITS NO UNFAIR !
ISNT IT TOO EARLY FOR IT TO BE GROWING NOW ?
SHOULDNT IT BE LIKE, WHEN I REACH MY EARLY TWENTIES ?
ARGH !!

it is also extremely uncomfortable, the side part of the gum near to my inner cheek has got some tooth sticking out already . and there's also some kinda hole near the tooth (should be for the tooth to grow) so food debris goes in and then i'll spend the whole day making funny faces cause i'm trying to use my tongue to get it out . its so depressing .

anw, i brought baby to pizza hut earlier this month and this is how he reacted :-

PERANGAI GEMOK LA SEYYY ! hahahahaha, k joking . i told him to pose like that . hah .

ok gtg, bye . i'll update whenever i can, alright .
toodles noodles, everybody . (:

2010-05-11T20:23:00.006+08:00

so yeeeaaahhh , we got ourselves a couple ring ! haaaapppppyyyyyy tauuu . heheh . My name has been engraved in the inside of his ring and his name is in my ring . forgot ah to take picture of the engrave part . Sorry horr !

so im left with next week to enjoy myself in school; as the following week i'll be away . i still have yet to know where i've been posted to . so people, keep those prayers coming !

anyway, i wanna go shopping at bugis STREET . nisha, kinah, mina ?! HINT HINT !!

HAHAHAHAHA !

Ok, gtg bye .

2010-05-01T12:09:00.002+08:00

We are turning 6months old in 6days !!

Yippee Yai Yai Yippe Yippee Yai ! YIPPEE YAI !

i created a twitter account . you can find me here :- http://twitter.com/fizahnorazmi . but i'm just having a teeny weeny problem . i can't find my vibrant, beautiful, clean and green country under "Mobile" . You know, the part where you can sms, instead of using the internet thing ? yeah that one . cool shit kay kan sms .

i feel like quitting my job and find a new one . one thing, the management there sucks . and also this particular leader piss me off . attitude problem siaaa . but the workscope itself, i have no problem . just sit down and pick up calls for all you hungry people out there .

"Hi, welcome to Mcdelivery !" - i'm just tired of saying this over and over again =.=

and i personally think that this job is gonna make me fat . cause the images of the burgers, tempt me to take a bite . and now, im craving for that new burger . Double Quarter Pounder with *melting* Cheese ... *droooooools*

Attachment is coming in three weeks time, so i'll bid goodbye to my school for 4months . and please please please pray for me that i dont get attached to Jurong Island . imagine the time i have to wake up every morning considering that i stay in the east ? and also, what would happen if i miss the shuttle to enter the island itself ? i'll be dead meat .

okay, thats all for today . toodles noodles everybody ((:

2010-04-27T23:12:00.003+08:00

My 2 girlfriends, we should meet soon .

Boyfriend, i meet you everyday already .

Yeah i know i've been missing in action . i have my reasons . but i have people around me to cheer me up and be there for me . ((:

Baby and me, we're doing great . the previous post was just the first and only period of time that we were not ourselves . but we pulled through and now... it couldnt get any better (((:

We went for a picnic the other day, just the two of us . we pitched a tent just in case in rained . but in the end, it didnt just rained, it stormed . no use pitching a tent, cause the rain was so bad, and somehow or other the rainwater managed to enter and so yeah, we got wet . but it was a good experience . being stuck with baby in a tent, it just couldnt get any better . heehhh . but nooooooooooooooooo, nothing happened, all we did was scooping up water and throwing it out using a plastic bag . fun siaaaaaaa .

baby sent me off to work after the picnic, and yeah the tent was heavy and he told me to carry it . so i said ..

F: BIIEEE, PLEASE AH, ANGKAT AH, GENTLEMAN AH SIKIT ...
H: NAK GENTLE2 NGN YOU UAT PE .
F: fgdysvhfifxstaytj ....

afew days back, meet up with Sakinah Jaffar and Amalina Jamaluddin . slacked at Mcdonalds, took aloooooot of pictures with kinah's new laptop, making stupid faces, catch ups .. it was time well spent . pictures at kinah's blog .

I'm working and schooling at the same time . and i am famished . i swear . i hate mondays . especially mondays . cause i work night shift during the weekends , and i end work late and i'll have to wake up in the morning for school .

Attachment is just in 4weeks time . so i'll be away from school for 4months . i was supposed to be attached to China, for two months . but i couldnt afford the $2K . so yeah, its ok, attachment in singapore, got pay .

and oooohhhh, also, i joined NDP again this year ! but i dont think it will be as fun as last year , as everything wont be at the platform .

so in conclusion, i have a huge problem , how the fcuk am i going to juggle, attachment, work and ndp at the same time ???!!!!!! its ok, there's always a solution to every problem, but i shall not think and stressed about it now, cause i have to stop blogging and call baby cause now he's sulking . haiyo . cute btol ah . hehe .

ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee . and Goodnight ((:

hate that i love you

2010-03-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure whats going on anymore .

Yeah dusty blog . But this is like the only time i have to update . i'm working night shifts till the wee hours of the morning . by the time i reach home, i'll be so knackered and i'll sleep all the way till the time that i'll have to wake up to go work all over again . and it goes on and on and on . But thank god, im awarded with 3days off since tuesday .
but it starts again tomorrow night . 10pm - 8am . like nbcb .

i know i've got lots to update . happy memories need to be clear and long-lasting . but im seriously in no mood to talk about happy things . I'm hurt, disappointed, angry, sad and plus all the unhappy phrases/words to describe what i'm feeling .

i know i wont be able to let go .
but i dont want to stay for all the wrong reasons .
you know my background .
i don't accept such things, though its unintentional .

2010-02-14T10:25:00.002+08:00

I MISS NDP 09'

previous blog post removed

2010-02-13T15:12:00.013+08:00

070210♥♥♥ - 3rd Monthsary

Last Sunday was a blast ! We were supposed to meet at 12pm . but both of us woke up late . heh heh . So we meet at Plaza Sing . i was late . he waited for half an hour so i told him to make full use of the time by buying me Panadol Flu Max and mineral water . yes yes, im sick . till now, my voice sengau with really bad cough .

we decided to have lunch at Pizza Hut cause ive been craving for it since.. yesteryear ? i had Turkey Bacon Carbonara while Love had Traditional Bolognaise and then we had Warm Chocolate Cake with Vanilla Ice-Cream . as he would say it, SHOOODDAAAP . hahaha .

and then it was "My Ex" . hell, i didnt know it was a Thai Movie . all i know is that its a horror movie . so yeap, i had a good time screaming in the theatre . scary la seyyy . SUMPAH ! rating: 4/5 . Go watch !

ohh, ive got something to add on . something that me and love laughed like HELL ! though it may seem not funny to you, but it is to us kayy .

we were otw home,
love: biie, you nak air ?
me: tak nak, kat umah byk air .
love: ok , i nak peg kedai kopi jab beli Milo .
me: ok can, i pun nak peg toilet .
love: Takya la, kat umah kan byk toilet .

anyway, Kimberly Ann Chander is leaving on Monday for Australia to further her studies . its been long since i met her sioo . So im sending her off since its the holidays . Good Luck, Kim . take good good care of yourself alright ((:

2010-01-31T19:01:00.005+08:00

Mina, where the hell are you ? sibuk attachment je ahhh . g buang ah attachment !

2010-01-27T16:58:00.002+08:00

No, i didnt change new specs . That's Suhailah's . Nice right ?!?!?!?!

the past few days/weeks i went out and took pictures . but the thing is, im lazy to upload it here . everything is in facebook . go check them out if you want ((:

Love has been sick and i have just recovered from fever + flu + cough . but still, i took the effort to accompany him all the way to the polyclinic last thursday . Long walk okay from his block to the Polyclinic . kluar rumah, turun lift, cross road, jln 10metres da sampai . jauh kan ? hehe .

lets talk about today . im ultra sensitive plus emotional today . i find myself trying very hard to hold back tears . i know i couldnt hold it back anymore if i went home . so i decided to go to my Mum's home instead . so here's where i am .

Dont ask why . alot is going on, and i dont want to talk about it , please ? i know you're gonna ask . but please don't .

Sorry for being cranky today . i didnt mean it . Yknow i love you .

I will update again, soon ?

2010-01-10T18:12:00.005+08:00

Love wasn't happy when he saw this . He kept pinching me everywhere .
Like kedi pinch2 org .

And so, pejam kelip pejam kelip , we reached two months . but something had to happen on that day . which i choose not to elaborate . jgn kaypo bolehh ? isshh . but still, we caught Alvin and the Chipmunk2 . Funny movie but i still prefer the first one .

Yesterday, last min plan met Love at Yishun . i woke up 8.30am kayyyyy . had breakfast together then we lepak-ed at Lower Seletar Reservoir . When we were about to leave , this two ~~fcukers~~ on bicycle who was about 50metres behind us, started making alot of noise . We turned thinking maybe it was afew of Love's friends . but then, they started smiling like as if there were some kind of butt-naked prostitute beside us . we ignored and continue walking again . then they started making some more noises . i started feeling really insecure and so Love told me to walk infront of him .

the two ~~fcukers~~ started cycling slowly . and eventually the ~~fcukers~~ caught up with us . One ~~fcuker~~ stopped infront of us and the other ~~fcuker~~ stopped beside us, my heart was thumping really2 fast by then . we ignored and continued walking . While walking all the way out of the park, i turned afew times and saw them still staring at us and smiling like shitheads . i turned one last time, showed my middle finger, and walked off . and then i turned again and i saw them starting to make their way towards us . and then.... we were confronted because i cursed them . ~~Fuck~~ you, you two ~~fuckers~~ . i hope you rot in hell, you ~~fucking~~ ~~shitheads~~ .

Dont mind my language . they are ~~fuckers~~ anyway .

As days goes by, i cant help but to say,
my heart swelled even larger .
swelled with what ?
swelled with love ofcourse ((:

2010-01-02T20:23:00.001+08:00

ok, watch this . freaking cute and hilarious .

now watch this . idiot siaa . but funny ah . haha .

2010-01-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

wanna know how my new year's eve went ?

it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E !

this will be soooooper brief .

i went out around 1+pm .
plan was to reach yishun by 3pm .
heard that bro just got his pay, ape lag, mintak sedekah ah .
but he said i got to accompany him to the salon .
so, i obeyed .
the salon was packed , extremely packed .
waited for about 1hour?? then it was his turn .
yup, that packed .
3.00pm, i told him im leaving cause im sooooper bored .
and he gave me, 5bucks =.=
854-ed to yishun, Love fetch me at the bustop .
met his sisters, Yana and Nur, watch Home Alone with them .
soooon, his mum came home from work and his dad woke up .
nervous ah theeeen .
Don, Yana's BF reached .
waited for everyone to get ready .
went out around 7plus ?
train-ed to Raffles Place .
had dinner near Lau Pa Sat (Spell Check??)
Gedebak Gedebuk, 10plus already, settled down at One Raffles Quay .
waited till fireworks . IT WAS BEAUTIFUL SIOOOO !
ALOOOOTTT OF PEOPLE !
dad being extremely annoying .
called me non-stop .
watch the really bad traffic at the 4-junction .
actually it was kinda fun ah .
hahaha .
walked back to MRT .
again, SOOOOOOOPER PACK .
but we didnt care, we just board .
reach Yishun .
i sleptover .
wash up , head for bed .
next day, made my move around 4plus ??

HAHAHA . BRIEF ABIS . Goodnight ((:

2009-12-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

"Of course.. I never forget a single thing about how we met. It's something meaningful to me, you know.."

He's the sweetest thing i tell you .

im having a blissful life . im as happy as ever . im literally on cloud nine . i think i could go higher . float away, merrily . without having anything to worry about ....

except for this coming test on Tuesday that i just couldnt be bothered to study . GM always spoils everything . so is the teacher . pfft ! yeah, i have to sit for a test during my holidays . blissful much ? tell me about it .

school reopen is just a week away and im SEX-CITED ! im bored staying at home . i wanna go school so mum wont nag about me not coming over often during my hols . yeah, my bad for neglecting her . but i just hate the journey from home to her place ! a minus point having divorced parents . pfft !

after spending three straight days with Love, believe it or not im already missing him .

ok, im gonna head for my comfy bed cause its like 2am in the morning ? when i have plans to crack my already cracked brain cells tomorrow at the library just for that GM class test on Tuesday . Ms Fong better pass me . Or else ...

Goodnight, readers ! ((:

Myanmar YEP 09' ; World's Drums Night ; Love <3

2009-12-27T19:41:00.010+08:00

2009-12-20T21:50:00.002+08:00

I AM BACK !!

Thanks love for updating my blog for me . and plus, i was greeted by 4 extremely sweet drafts from love . awww, thanks dear .

so how did my trip went ? for a start, i was really missing home . yerp, i was homesick during the first 5 days . but the next 5days was fast . and the hotel, urgh . though its the best in the area, i had some bad experience there .

The first day, as said by love, i boarded the plane . it was my first time so i was excited . we were supposed to remain seated during take off . my butt was literally in my seat with my seatbelt on but my body wasnt leaning . i was bouncing and prancing about and i was damn lucky to get the window seat . excited ah theeeennnnn .

landed about 2hours later . went straight to the hotel, had dinner, reflection and lights off .

next day was work, we went to Zabu Oak Shuang Nunnery . The team did some planting, taught english and carried some bricks . yerp, carried bricks . but i had to fell sick on the second day so i was prohibited from doing any work that day . boring siooo .

day 3, i recovered and was ready to work ! i carried bricks, taught english and i watered the plants that the team planted . imagine carrying huge, tin-made watering cans which is extremely heavy to and fro from the well and planting area and plus, one plant is equal to one can of water . thats how much water one plant needed and imagine the amount of work needed . and not to mention, the weather is stinking hot . Singapore is about 27degress . Myanmar 38degrees (!!) work ended at about 3pm, back to hotel, rested for 1 hour, had dinner and reflection, lights off .

day 4 and 5 was a new worksite . Su Htoo Pan Sirimingala Kandaw Parahita Monastric Education School at Ayemyittar Quatter - Alwanswite Villange - Thanlyin Town . Long kapeee name . hahah . we did planting and taught english . but this place was more challenging . since we're planting Mango trees, huge holes are needed . the first day, the holes were already dugged for us . so we just had to fill it up with 2 types of fertilizers; man-made and cowdunk . the second day, we had to dig the holes ourselves . its aout half and arm deep . carrying the heavy baskets of fertilizers and the tin cans of water is extremely tidious . whats worst is that, this resources are really far away from the planting area . i'll estimate about 200metres away . yerp, that far .

6th day, was resting day . the team went to another worksite (Twante Town) which is too far away from the first hotel . so we check in to the 2nd hotel which is in the city, Yangon . the hotel wasnt that bad though the building was quite run-down . we had a tour to the place we're gonna work for the rest of the days . but the thing is, the place is in the rural area . so from the hotel to the new worksite its about 2hours busride .and whats worst is that, the journey is extremely bumpy .

7th, 8th, 9th day, the name of the place we worked at was Paya Ngotto North Primary School . we wad to do a 500feet road repair infront of the school . yerp, road repair . but instead of using tar, we used cement . a mixture of sand, water and cement powder . building the road have a few steps .

first, you clear the area
second, used broken bricks for the base of the road . which means, we have to knock the bricks into small pieces . while breaking the bricks , i thought about those construction worker in Singapore . how lucky they were to have those big drilling machines . we had to use a stinking hammer ok !!
third, stomp the crushed bricks using a huge stomper . Manual Work .
forth, lay sand over the bricks and stomp again .
fifth, mix cement and lay them on top of the sand . (manual work . again the construction workers back in singapore , damn lucky . they have cement mixer while we had to do it using shovels)
sixth, leave it to dry for about 30mins, smoothen the road and draw lines on it for friction . leave it to dry till hard rock .

so the hard work was carrying sand and cement to and fro . back breaking i tell you .

10th day, we went touring around the city, headed for the airport and flew back to homeland .

i'll update pictures soon once i got them .

thats it for today, toodles ((:

Off To Myanmar

2009-12-09T18:36:00.031+08:00

ermm .. okayy . hellOo all ! (: just tO intrOduce myself , i'm Muhammad Hanafi . that guy weariin' the pink/white shirt in the phOto on the left . sOme of you may nOe me , sOme may nOt . this is actually my ferst tyme using "www.blogger.com" tO pOst up sOme updates . coz i do nOt have a blog plus i don't actually blog at all . haha .

aniiwaes ,, tO you guys & ladies , friends of NurFaizah .

our dear friend here has olready taken her flight & depart off tO Myanmar this afternOon .

Date: 09 Dec' '09
Time: 1420

she was olready in Changi airport by 8++am in the morniin' . had her breakfast wiit her family members . then i came at around 10am and we spend sOme tyme talkiin' & laughiin' , though we nOe deep inside we felt sad . sad coz she had tO leave her family , friends , & especiially ME! (that's what she saed .) for 10 loooooooong daes .. dats lyke more than a week . as for me , i could see from her expression . i nOe she was haviin' a hard time goiin' off . but however , in the middle of all thOse sadness .....

Me: tkmO sad~2 kayy .
Fizah: mmm ..
Me: klau sad~2 tkmO pegii lahh .
Fizah: *suddenly lOoked at me* tapii i nak naek Aeroplane !! *smileSs*
Me: -.-

i felt lyke , "WTH??" .. but i gOtta tell you , she was DAMNNN BLOOODDYY CUTE !!!!! wiit thOse kinds of actions she suddenly potrayed in the middle of our 'sad' conversations .

ouhh .. And FYI ! she's tOtally un-contact-able , FOR THE WHOLE OF THE 10 DAES !!! , while she's there )': the reason is b'coz that place she's goiin' has gOt nOt a single satellite connection at all . nOo connection = nOo contactiin' . nOo contactiin' = nOo updates !! ):

hmm .. aniiwhoooSsss ... i thiink its enough of the updates fOr nOw .

lets all please please please just pray for NurFaizah's safety , staeiin' healthy & mOst impt of all , she would cOme back safely .

thnkiiu for readiing ! (;

DONT READ IF IT DOESNT CONCERN YOU !

Dear , hope u've safely touched down & arrived at the airport in Myanmar . i'd just pray for ur safety . gO safe & come back safe . aniiwaes , i dont want u to feel sad over thre tauu ! i want u to really njoy ur tyme thre wiit the rest . hav a great trip/holiidae . Take Care . see you sOon syng ..

Signing off: Love, NafiieChipmunk

P.S. ILOVEYOU , IMISSYOU

2009-12-09T13:35:00.001+08:00

IM OFF ! WILL BE BACK ON THE 18TH DECEMBER .
TAKE CARE ((:

2009-12-04T13:17:00.002+08:00

this isnt gonna be a proper update . im just here to vent my anger .

RULE NUMBER 1 OF BEING A GOOD FRIEND : NEVER EVER EVEN TRY TO WIN THE HEART OF YOUR-USE-TO-BE-CLOSE FRIENDS' EX .

THIS IS FREAKING BASIC I TELL YOU ! THOSE WHO DONT KNOW THIS, IS FUCKING PATHETIC AND OBVIOUSLY HADNT BEEN A GOOD FRIEND .

YEAH2, i know the controversy between the people who believe the otherwise and the people who believe the wise . maybe its ok, to win the heart of your-used-to-be-close friends' ex . cause duhh, its after all used-to-be close friend . but still, the hurt is there . and just incase if i fail to mention this, WE'RE NOT ENEMIES . its just that we dont get along that much anymore . there wasnt even a fight/misunderstanding or anything big like that .

there's nothing i can do about it except to NOT trust this flirty girl anymore .

and a tip, please, you'll regret . i can see how she works around guys . you know who you are .

im extremely busy these days . with my trip just days away, i fell asleep so fast even when Love called, i went through the "takephone.seescreen.putitonsilent.putitback" routine . heh heh . sorry Love .

2009-11-16T01:56:00.002+08:00

eerrrrmmmm. ok i am totally unsure of what to update . lets just say im gettng more happier each day . its proven cause im starting to eat ALOOOOTTT . i sweeeeaaaaarrr . i have got to cut down on my food intake soon . or else, its gonna get unhealthy .

picture taken about a week ago . at Safra Yishun Rock Climbing Competion, Rock On . No, i didnt take part . i was the Official as they say . but to be frank, im just menyebok there . hahah . and the shades, Funkyyy .

wtf im doing up at 2.03 am updating my dusty blog ? because of the blog dusty la thats why i update . haha . k mepek . just that, bro was being extra nice to me these days, he gave me a generous share of his Famous Amos cookies, a whole packet of one of my fav biscuits, Tiger and offered me his laptop afew times since yesterday . only today i realised the reason behind all these nice-y things he did; he simply wanted to use my stinking phone . pathetic right ?! i knoww . and so, as a good sister, i lend it to him . provided that whoever he wanted to talk otp with must call instead of him calling . nyehehehe . and ohh, ya'll must be wondering where in the world his phone went . he lost it . stupid boy . tsk tsk .

yesterday, i had a wonderful time spending it with Love . i bus-ed down to Yishun to meet him at 12.30pm, then went straight to NorthPoint for breakfast . met Zaki and Suhailah there and we watched Paranormal Activities . TRUST ME, IT IS THE MOST SCARIEST HORROR MOVIE I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE . it was hard sleeping at night . i had a good time debating with myself in my head whether to leave the lights on when i sleep . and also, i end up sacrifising my time on the phone with Love just because i was too scared staying awake with me, myself and i and the scary shadows that haunt me .

after Paranormal Activities, we headed to Republic Poly for World's Drums Night . met the rest of Soul Percussion there . the show was amazing i tell you . definitely worth my time . went straight home . reached home nearly 12am and dad wasnt irritating .

as a matter of fact, i think dad is beginning to trust me and giving a lil bit more of freedom . he doesnt call every minute when im outisde anymore ( accept when its getting too late ), he doesnt questioned me where im going, with whom and etc etc anymore . life is bliss nowadays except for the stupid phone bills . pfft !

Myanmar trip has been confirmed . im flying off on the 8th of December . time of departure is 2.20pm . Mum is gonna take off day to sent me off . Love is gonna skip half of his classes . So it means that Love and Mum is gonna meet and im so effing scared . 3more weeks to go and im out of this country for 10 long days .

Look at the lenght of this post . talk about donno what to talk about huh . hahaha .

i'd better sign off, tomorrow school starts at 8.30am and im not even sleepy yet . toodles .

DONT READ IF IT DOESNT CONCERN YOU !
we have trust in each other . we're strong . and a 10 day myanmar trip without having been able to hear from each other at all, isnt gonna bring us down . im gonna stop myself from worrying that you might change when i came back and i wish you would too . though we're not gonna be physically together, our hearts still beat as one . we're stronger then a stinking 10 day trip to Myanmar . its only TEN DAYS ! Take a chill pill ( TALKING IS EASIER THEN DOING ) . i love you .

Short Post

2009-10-30T19:42:00.006+08:00

im stressing my butt off in school .

one word to describe the new modules im taking; Suck .

General Microbiology and Laboratory Mathematics .

i didnt take Biology in Seconday School and i hate Maths since i was born .
trust me, im having the best time of my life . Not .

but still, the reason that kept me going throught my toughest time is You .

the cutest Chipmunk in the Whole Wide World (((:

mcm rindu gitukan .

2009-10-21T16:46:00.003+08:00

walauuuu . lame pe i never update . i received calls, smses about whether im still using this blog . YES !! IM STILL USING IT !! just that i dont have internet access at home and with my extremely hectic schedule plus timetable that isnt helping at all, i left my blog dusty .but too bad, i dont have pictures with me right now . tell you what, i'll just update roughly about what happened lately .

psst! i even wrote a list of what i wanna update . heheh .

2nd OCTOBER .
-Secondary school jalan raye .
-got LORRY !
-near accident experience
-reach home around 1plus am and was extremely tired ,

5th - 7th October
-BLAZE Camp .
-First Day, Amazing Race .
-though my team didnt finish first, i had fuuuuunnnnnnn (((:

-2nd Day
-the day i turned 18 .
-water rafting at east coast .
-thrown inside the water, thanks ahhhhhhh .
-Camp fire
-performance, cadbury shake head instead of up-down eyebrow was hilarious !!
-EVERYONE SANG ME A BIRTHDAY SONG !! Awwwwwwww .

-3rd day
-HIGH ELEMENTS !!!!! EEEEEEKKKKKK !
-i had confidence . but i cried when i was up there .
-but i finish the course kaayy .
-proud ah theeennn ((:
-found out i was promoted to BLAZE 2 CAMP !! OVERSEAS OK !!

7th October,
-Seoul Garden with Bestfriends .
-last min, nisha couldnt make it . so i still owe her a treat ,
-marina square Seoul Garden .
-extremely full, it lasted the whole dayyyyyyy .

9th October
-Gathering with NDP mates at Minds Cafe at Boat Quay .
-played games . Dirty Minds . oO

12th October
-school reopens . BOOORRRIIIINGGGG !!!!

the whole of last week i had training for a competition (which was actually just now) with Soul Percussion . everyday i reach home around 8plus - 10pm . im considering of joining but it will only mean im stuck with 2 CCAs . Rock Climbing and Soul Percussion . which also means i wont have time for myself .

this week was the same . Monday and Tuesday was training . then today was the competition and i heard that out of the 7 performance by AHS, ours was the best . as said by the judges ok . bkn perasan sendiri .

just some random updates:-
-im going MYANMAR THIS DECEMBER FOR 10 DAYS !!
-im not working at Suntec anymore .
- and DO NOT ADD ME AT MY "NURFAIZAH NORAZMI" ACCOUNT . ITS DEAD . ADD ME AT MY "FIZAH NORAZMI" ACCOUNT INSTEAD . EMAIL: FIZAHLOVES@HOTMAIL.COM

ok, i gtg for Rock Climbing training now . byeeeeeee !!

2009-09-18T20:33:00.003+08:00

i love those hoodies . it belongs to Suhailah Suhaimi though . and it only cost 10dollars .

pic was taken last week at Tampines Regional Library when me, Suhailah and Nasyitha helped each other cramp as much information in our already cramped brain during the examination period . but thank god exams is atlast over . and say HELLO to the 4 weeks holiday !! jyeeahhhh .

but the things is, next semesters module is General Microbiology and Laboratory Mathematics . i have no basic Bio background and i hate maths . doesn't life get any tougher ?

but wth ? school's only reopeing on the 12 october .

afew weeks back was Mina's belated birthday celebration . we bought her muffins instead of a cake . someting diff than what we use to do . Mina's face was super excited and it was rather funny . she was pouncing in her seat , stomping her feet and her eyes was gleaming . i nearly thought it was her tenth birthday istead of her 18th . haha

ahhh yes atlast abang tagged me the photo . left pic was taken about 1 month ago, right picture was taken in 2005 ? i was bloody sec 2 . see the diff ?!?!?! and oh, it's iron man, not star wars ah . haha .

and ohh, i know im gonna be away from the laptop the next few days due to work and celebrations, so here it is :-

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

TO ALL THE MUSLIMS IN THE WORLD !!

to everyone that know me, if i ever hurt you in any way , break your heart, scold indecent words, talked behind your back or did any wrong doings towards you that you're not happy about, IM SO SO SO VERY VERY VERY SORRY OK ? SPREAD THE LOVE PEOPLE .

much love,

the girl next door (chey step girl next door aje aku nie, teeheeeeeee !! )

2009-09-17T18:18:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH !! MAU KEKEK PE GAMBAR ?!

LOOK AT MY SPECTACLES ! bloody dorky siooooo .

this was like 4years ago as stated by abang danial in his Facebook . he tagged me this . we should take another pic of us together now and compare . i swear, its gonna be hilarious . anw, i want our pic of us at the Toy Convention thingy . you know the pic with that big robot ? was that from Star Wars ? idc, tag me at facebook .

and so i just did my shopping for Hari Raya yesterday at Geylang with Kinah and Mina .it was raining heavily at first . and i had to fold my jeans up making me look like a nyonya pergi pasar jual sayor . cause i was wearing my slackest ever outfit , jeans and tshirt .

afew days back i went out with Kai . everything was last min, cause i was having extremely bad cramps so headed to Pasir Ris and i didnt know why i dress up like as if we were going town . break fast at his place with his family and end up we headed to Tanjong Pagar to meet up with his friends . i guess, my instincts could be trusted ((: haha .

and another thing, im sleep-deprived . i've been staying out late till the wee hours of the morning with him . hahhhh

k gtg, get ready . byeeeee !

6th october mcm da dekat gitukan . ehehhhhh .

2009-09-08T17:46:00.002+08:00

ahhhh yes the birthday girl . k fake belated . anyhooos .

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY !!

Sri Amalina Jamaluddin, thanks for being there when i needed a friend . a great listening ear and the person i look up to . thought sometimes you can be a pain in the ass , you're still a great bestfriend . love you many2 ! amek license cepat2 tauuuu !!

2009-09-02T16:57:00.004+08:00

its been sometime since i did a proper update . i've been extremely busy lately . im currently at Mina's house using her laptop while watching Ghost of Girlfriends Past and updating my dusty blog . multi-tasking they say . ahaha .

and so i lost my Ezlink card together with my lanyard . i have yet to report it and make a new one . just that i couldnt find time to travel all the way to Pasir Ris . and plus it cost money . dad doesnt have a clue . i'll placed that on top of my to-do list .

NEXT WEEK IS EXAM !! EXAM IS NEXT WEEK !! I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING !!

8th september : Introductory Chemistry
11am-1pm
10th September : Analytical Chemistry
11am-1pm??

but still, i still have plans over the weekends =.=
4th September,Friday : break fast with Rock Climbing mates [ still unsure if im going or not ]
5th September,Saturday : break fast with NDP mates . *gotto rush after work meet them at geylang*

I AM SO STRESSED . AND OHH, DID I MENTION IM SICK ?! YES, IM SICK YET AGAIN . DOWN WITH FEVER, DRY COUGH, NO FLU AND BODY ACHES . and the bad thing is , i infected Muhammad Khairul bin Haron . Army Kobis Boy, AKB . hahahahha . we're seeing each other ((:

a picture to end this post :-
look closely, what do you see in the test-tube? tag me your answer ((:

byeeee .

2009-08-25T12:07:00.003+08:00

woah . lame or what i never update . i was very very busy these few days . with LLA bull and work . yeah, work . im currently working at Suntec City . wont say what floor, which tower or what shop . want to know, ask me personally ok ? ((:

PICTURES FOR APPRECIATION TEA AND NDP ACTUAL SHOW">

gtg, bye .

you made my day ((:

ohh psst! fav pic luh siolsss . heh . nah, just a friend ((:

2009-08-16T21:15:00.003+08:00

ive been going out alot these few days . even on school nights . reaching home at 12midnight . without dad digging out my eardrums . a miracle, i call it .

Wednesday, had Rock Climbing . training was bloooooddyyy tough . but i wasnt in my best mood and was feeling down . and so i was physically there , but not mentally . the next thing i realize was , cramps all over .

but still, i had some energy left to go slack with Sabil, Arfan and Yat at Tampines till 11plus pm .

otw to meet Yat,
me: angkat kan beg please .. aku penat ah .
sabil : fan .. angkat .
arfan: bil .. angkat .

Friday, class was cancelled so no school . happy ah abeyyyy . so meet Abang Danial . wah sien, lame sio tk jumpe diee . we walk around Raffles City, Suntec City, Marina Square and Esplanade . He treated me Mcdonalds, brought me to the Arcade to cheer me up, went to a Toy Convention thingy . No, not planned to go there . but the most shocking thing is, there's NO CHILDREN . ADULTS, EVERYWHERE . k mayb because its friday, but stilll .
i went home early . reach home around 6plus .

Saturday, NDP 09' Appreciation Tea at Touch Community somewhere in Redhill . plan was to meet Yat at Paya Lebar, 12 pm . but end up, Sabil, Arfan and Razman was late . one hour late infact . we were supposed to go meet Yat together but the boys were too late and Yat was beginning to get mad so i met him first . met him and he was barking mad . i was scared shitless . they reached at 1.30pm . trained to redhill, walked there , entered the Theatre late .

performance was really really good . i was very entertained and this guy, oh my gawd, bloody hot with a bloody good voice . cair ah abeyyyyyy .

eat, eat, camwhore . pictures in facebook .

Me, Sabil, Yat, Razman, Arfan, Wan, Arief, Shariff, Epul, Ashalina, Aida, Zaki, Shahid, Sariman and Hidayah ( sorry if i miss out on anybody ) head to Marina Square to eat . after that Me, Sabil, Arfan, Yat, Wan, Zaki, Epul and Razman went to Arab St for shisha session . yes, i was the only girl cause Aida was supposed to follow but it was Shahid's birthday . my first time kayyy, but it was fuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnn ! reach home , 1145pm .

today, woke up early, head to Granny's place . Kakak Zakiah and her future husband, Abg Saiful and Mak Long came to Singapore from KL and it was sight see-ing day at City Hall for them .Yesssss, 3 days straight i went to City Hall .

Zulfadhli: youngest cousin . age: 4years old .
fadhli: *showing off his yo-yo* kakak, kakak ade Yo-Yo ?
me: tkde, knape ?
fadhli: tkde ?! kat rumah pun tkde ?
me: tkde .
fadhli: pegi mintak mak la . best tau . fadhli ade Yo-Yo .

fadhli: *singing onE of the National Day Song*
One People, One Nation, One Singapore ....!!
thats the way, DONT COME BACK, FORVER MOREE ... !!

Anyway, Kakak Zakiah is getting married sometime around 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th of OCTOBER . and so im gonna be away during these dates . and then Blaze Camp 5th, 6th, 7th OCTOBER . which means, i dont get to sleep in my bed for 7 days .

ok gtg, wanna surf the net . bye .

2009-08-11T12:42:00.003+08:00

SENTOSAAAAAA . Saturday, 080809 .

ahhhhh, one relaxing dayy with NDP peeps . should do it again . but the number of ciggies is waayyyy too much . no no, i aint gonna be a heavy smoker . pictures click on the link in the previous post .

NDP . Sunday, 090809 .

it was a BLASTTTTTT !!!!!!! shall do it again next year . after PPP, Post Party Parade ( which is kinda boring ), initial plan was to torn the night away with the rest . but end up, i got sick and vomitted 4 - 5 times in less then 2 hours . i had to spoil the plan by making one of the guys to send me back home by cab cause there's no more bus and MRT service anymore . k no . i didnt make them sent me home . he volunteered . but i still feel bad for spoiling the plan . i owe them BIG time .

NDP journey has come to an end . im gonna miss it . though i sweat the hell out of myself every Saturday, i still had a hell lot of fun . thought of returning next year but im not sure if its gonna be the same with some of em seniors not returning . gotto concentrate on their FYP . everyone cried . even the crazy, loud, annoying, irritating boys cried . its not SISI . it shows that they are really dedicated to this NDP Journey . atleast they have emotional feelings unlike some other boys step macho .

ohh, before i end of ..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, FARIDAH NISHA BTE AZMAN !!

sume satu2 da legal . best ahhhhhhh .

i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .i want you back .

2009-08-09T08:04:00.000+08:00

oh my hell ! i had theee most happening Sentosa outing with NDP mates yesterday ! it was bloody fun okaaayyy . minus the part i was thrown into the sea but hell, we should do it again ((:

PICTURES
today is a significant date . for me and for Singapore . HAPPY 44TH NATIONAL DAY, EVERYONE !! LOOK OUT FOR ME ON TV !!!!!!!!!!!! ((:

2009-08-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE OLD, HAGGARD ME, HELLO REFRESHED NEW ME !!

a new refreshed storybook for me to write new memories in . i could literally hear the calling of new memories to be recorded in here . hahaha . lame .

i decided to create a new blog because i wanted to move on with my life . things around me was eating my brain cells these days and i wanted continue life without all bad memories that have been haunting me since i was young .

though i had thought not to leave my new link at my OLD url, ( cause i wanted to see how many would go to such extent to find my blog ) i feel that such doings was actually not needed . those who want to read, read on . those who is not interested then thats up to them . i cant control who reads my blog . thats why i didnt privatise it . duh . sooo, for those who decided to relink me, then by all means ((:

im not sure if posting this would break the rules of leaving my past behind and move on but wtheck ?! this is after all my blog . im so proud .

i did left everything behind and i dont intend to turn back to make things ok, but there's this tini winny part of me that is holding me back .but nonetheless, everything is literally left behind . im still inlove with someone who doesnt give a shit about me .

and its a little hard to move on cause i made such an important decision without thinking rationally . i guess i was blinded by wealth and anger . i tried mending things, but nothing work . its been 3weeks now and im not sure myself if im still waiting or not .

MOVING ON !

remember the blaze camp that was supposed to be on the 1st, 2nd and 3rd of July but was postponed because of the pathetic swine flu ? well, it was postponed to the 14th, 15th and 16th of August which is next weekend . but then, now, i have just been informed that it was postponed to FIFTH, SIXTH AND SEVENTH OCTOBER !!!!! how unfair is that ???!!!!!! pfft !! bloody annoying .

ok, i gtg sleeepp . tomorrow morning got to wake up early, go out of the house by 8am, travel to Jurong to help Din carry the food he's bringing to Sentosa for BOOMERANG'S group outing . just so you know, boomerang is the name of my NDP group . yeah2 i know . who the hell is Din till i can sacrifice my afew hours of beauty sleep to travel to Jurong ? truth is, i feel bad to not contributing to anything for tomorrow's outing so thats the reason to why i agreed to held Din . atleast i did something, yknow .

GOODNIGHT ((: